March 07, 2023
So, so far, I have an estimated date of when my car will be fixed. I can't wait to drive it though. My deductible is super high but oh well, it's why I have savings for. I just dread having to save up again, especially when i have so much bills now. Sometimes I think I should have not bought those things in the past but oh well, oh well. I have this dumb feeling--call it hopeful, I call it dumb--that my finances will be alright, that it'll be all okay....I'm not sure if it will but as long as I am alive, I guess it'll all be okay. What else can I do, right?
I updated this website (the blog) and am about to update the main site soon enough. I'm gonna add the Black Sun shrine page, some photos/fanart to the JJBA fanpage, maybe add some photos or stories that I made while playing the sims 3 on the Sims shrine on this blog. I also wanna add a chatbox so people can talk to me (if they want to). So far, I'm acting like no one visits my blog or my main site, that I'm the only one here, and I get too comfortable and share too much. I hope it's not too much? Besides, there are indeed people who wants to read random blogs, so here's a random blog for you. I also like writing or journalling my emotions. It feels good and helps me get over stuff quicker. It's like I'm dumping emotions into a trashcan--that being my blog.
Ah that said, my internet is being super slow so I'm not doing any of that. I might as well just draw Aitada. I haven't really drawn them in a while, so well, why not? I have a romantic Vampire/Werewoof idea for art for them.
I'm really proud of myself. I finally got my ass off twitter and instagram. I replaced it with gaming. I went back to my childhood roots: fighting games. My current partner is into those games, and jesus christ, let me tell you, I feel like I met him at such a perfect time. I was losing myself, my childhood self, and well, he's helping me rediscover myself. I love gaming. It's time I learn that it's okay to game. That said, I learned so much from being with him. I realized people don't love you less with each mistake you do. If they do, they never really loved you in the first place...Well, unless, of course, if you're toxic. I love him.
Yea, that reminds me. My life is so good. It has been regardless of the deer vs. car accident I was in or whatever bullshit that has happened to me. I am still in a great place, you know? But sometimes, I still feel empty. I feel empty. Perhaps, it's my chronic depression, but oh well. C'est la vie.