so 06/08/2022 huh.
Look at me, I have a social life.
I finally hung out with my kouhai today outside of work ! It is quite a big deal for me, who usually only uses their days-off to work on their college tasks.
Also, I was feeling chatty earlier, I am not sure where that energy went, but now, I find myself empty of words
I still have college tasks as we speak, but I could not concentrate on it. My brain wants to do something else, and what better way is there to clear my brain than just writing whatever thoughts I have until my brain is just an empty slate? Perhaps, that way, I could concentrate on this paper I have to write for college.
I quite like the way I take a break from writing: writing This also influenced today's hang-out with kouhai. It was just short and sweet!
I think I was so excited about hanging out that I forgot that cars have doors, and I hit my face (lips specifically) on the car door. It's quite a numb pain right now. It has been the entire day. Which I am glad. I had really bad back-pain the other day, and I really should go back to doing yoga. It was NOT a good time. But this bruise on my lip is nothing compared to that backpain.
We ate Hibachi food, got some Starbucks
yessssss boujee!! then went to Hobby Lobby. That was the first time I have ever properly explored a Hobby Lobby, and oh my magical skydaddy being, they have EVERYTHING crafts! It was such an amazing experience! I would love to go back there again.
Also, someone please tell me how do I become pretty like them?
We watched some K-pop videos. Red Velvet basically, and gosh, I am nonbinary now, but I would still love to be pretty like that!
That said, I worked on organizing my websites again. I have not worked on my main website for some time now, since I was working on the blog (this one), and I thought it needed some love and attention. So I gave it just that. I have made "modulars" as well that I can call instead of writing the whole thing. I am talking about the Navigation part. I don't think anyone really wants to go back to each pages individually, so I use the "call" function. I took off the mobile menu, because I hated it actually. I added a softwarning for my original art, because I use a lot of nudity, blood, and gore. It's depicted artistically, but I know some people are still sensitive to that. So I added that.
I still wanna work on something I call the Continuum. It's actually a stylization of the word, continuous. The Continuum is basically more lightweight and data-friendly than my PNG files in the gallery. But I have to re-save or somehow convert my art files to .jpg, because the software is written to only take .jpg files. I think it's easier on the data, too. I'm still thinking whether or not I should make a separate one for my original art and fanart, but as of right now, I think I should combine them together since I don't understand all parts of the software yet and I am not sure how to have two of them running.
The Continuum also solves my problem and shows my latest art FIRST. While I have the art updates now next to the website updates, I still thought it's easier if people saw my latest art first. With each new art, I think I get better. So I would like to give a better impression first as well. The Gallery (and lightweight one, too) will just serve as my archive of PNG files.
Also I really love it being here in my website. There's no "I do not belong here" feeling, because this is mine. I worked on this. I made this. No one can throw me out of this place. I love it. It's my little space in the internet (the void).
There are a lot of streets in my area that are being worked on, and that stirs up a lot of my anxiety. I hope tomorrow's drive to work is smooth and easy.
Pining like a fool
I think of the girl I like again. I feel so pathetic and weird that I like her so much. She only throws crumbs (of interaction) at me, sometimes. I would really rather focus my attention somewhere else than her. But she's on my mind. A little, warm candle over there. But I feel like a fool, because never in hundred centuries would she ever consider me or like me back. All I can do is be her good friend. She is too good for me.