Insomnia
It's 3:19AM as I'm writing this. I felt an immense amount of worry and anxiety disappear when I first wrote the previous post. I'm hoping that when I write here again, it'll do the same effect so I can sleep.
I think I'll just lay down my thoughts.
A lot of people are saying that we cannot accept defeat but should accept it. I speak for myself and I can say I take losing very well. However, when these numbers do not add up, when the whole thing looks very suspicious... when voting machines break, when votes are retracted, when one presidential candidate has paid his way, that's when it's unacceptable.
It feels like there are a lot of things going on. It's not just my home country. The US is having troubles, constantly it seems. Sri Lanka is burning homes of their corrupt politicians (good for them). Malaysia, too. Ukraine, too.
I read once that human brains aren't designed to take so much information.
I would like to sit down and try to do something else to distract myself, but I find that I have no interest in that.
I'm quite jealous of France and French people. I love how they go on strikes. It's in their history. I hope to learn from them. I hope others, too.
It's 3:31AM as I write and I'm having the insomnia headaches. I've calmed down a bit now, but my brain is still high off anxiety and worry. I'll probably do something, play a game or read a book, until I fall asleep.
